One was that I would start facing problems head on, and another, more agreeable, idea was that I would start each day by actually creating something.
So how is that going for you? I hear you ask. Actually, since you asked, it has been bloody terrifying, let me tell you about it.A few weeks ago I was faced with a major setback for my summer camps. I have been running them from home for a few years, and everything seemed to be going swimmingly, until I got a notice from my Home Owner’s Association. Basically, I have been told to find another venue for my camps. I won’t go into details why, suffice to say it involved a fairly disgruntled neighbor, doughnuts, inappropriate language, and screaming. Horrified and scared, I started to do what I normally do: feel overwhelmed, worry, eat all the chocolate, then start to think about giving in. Then I remembered my promise to myself. Sheesh.
So here we are. I have spent the last few days doing things that make me feel deeply uncomfortable. I tried getting my husband to do them, but he pointed out that I need to get used to doing scary stuff. I batted my eyelids, and he still said “no”. Hmmphh.
So, I spent time doing some conflict resolution, cold-called organizations, negotiated terms and prices, crunched numbers, and sent out emails I was truly scared of sending and………….it was okay. Better than okay, I feel exhilarated! I managed it all!
Your wrote ups are great! Keep going girl! Totally know what u mean! I’m the sane!!!
Thanks Jules! It can get grisly can’t it? I actually said the words “I don’t want to be a grown up anymore!” last week!!! LOL